# On Isolation
### Entered in vim on OpenBSD (Fujitsu LifeBook) 
### 20190414

Lately I find myself exceptionally in disagreement with 
almost every part of _popular_ culture. I have absolutely
nothing in common with what is being presented. I hate the
left, but I also hate Trump. I have long since stopped
watching Hollywood movies, all television, popular music,
social media -- anything that intuitively smacks of this
fake world I find myself in.

I have been sequestering myself with Hermetic treatises and
other books I feel have substance. I have also been 
recording an album centering around 12 string acoustic
guitar, and shunning my phone. Here in Weimar 2.0, I know
I am not alone in this feeling. Everything feels unnatural,
the world is upside down. I find myself waiting for the
inevitable massive system failure. I no longer care about
losing everything I have worked a lifetime for. A global
stone-age reset seems the best option this Earth has. Ted
was right. Maybe the Mexico City volcano or Yellowstone 
going off will provide the impetus needed. No one is doing
a damned thing, myself included. It's all so tiresome.

I no longer believe death is the end, nor do I care if I
am wrong. This invasive police state, pushing the 3rd world
into the place my family has called home for 400 years, as
well as our ancestral home in Europe weighs heavily upon 
me. We were conquered a thousand years ago by Christianity.
Our culture poisoned, our men softened. The 20th century
decimated the Europeans, and saw to it that education was
replaced with the enemy agenda. This took place everywhere
in the west. I saw through it in 1993 and dropped out of 
public school not wanting to participate. In college I 
earned an easy 4.0, but valued this minimally as there was
no tangible worth. Nothing that impacted my survival, 
nothing that I could look back on at the end of my life 
as worthwhile. A worker bee with his eyes open, engaged
in a bullshit waste of my life. 

I welcome the fall. I cheer its acceleration. Only a 
complete failure of this system will bring mankind to their
senses. If it doesn't then their discontinued existence
will compensate.