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       shut it down
       July 08th, 2018
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       Sometimes the little frustrations add up and spill over. I tend to
       get very quiet when I'm at my breaking point. I shut down. I walk
       away. When I was young I'd walk away in grandiose ways: from
       relationships, jobs, responsibility. I've learned how to siphon
       off the steam before reaching that point. I meditate, I walk,
       I pray. I can roll with it a lot more than when I was a kid.
       Still, sometimes it feels like it would be easier to shut it all
       down and walk away from my life. It's not a rational thought. My
       life is pretty damn good. The frustrations are minor things,
       meaningless really. You can't compare lives that way, though. It's
       not rational, as I said, and it's not logical.
       
       I'm going to drink a nice glass of gin, read a bit, and go for an
       evening walk. Tomorrow will start a busy work-week and I'll be
       walking into it already stressed. It's not a good recipe.