Dream

The first part of the dream I am
in the wood walking. It's getting
dark and I don't know where I am
where I am going. 

I am then in town. I am walking
with my bike on the sidewalk. I 
think it's the best of both world
since I have a bike but I'm protected
on the sidewalk. I almost ride my
bike, but I know I might get a 
ticket for doing so. 

We get to a store, it's in
the middle of the city. It's
a store where you buy buttons
of all sorts. It reminds me 
of a button store that was 
close to where I lived as a
teenager. 

We get into the store and we 
look into the hat section. 
There was one hat with a big
button on the top. There are
some wolf patterns in knots
on one of the hat. I decide
on one hat to purchase, it's
not great but it kind of fits.
The cashier ask me if I want 
to purchase a second one for
fifty cents. I realize I don't
even want one hat to start 
with so I really don't want a 
second one!

Reflection 

These dreams are quite foggy,
very far from dream of clarity
or lucid dreaming. Closer to 
day dreams, without much details,
without much connections between
each sections. 

I tend to not care as much 
about these dreams, or not 
spend as much time analysing
them. 

But the purchase part is interesting. 
I have a bit more saving these days, 
and I've been spending on a lot
of small thing here and there. 
Some part for my NDS, some stickers,
spending money for training on
openBSD. Just regularly spending
more for no reason. 

One of my core practice is 
called the three pillar. It consist
of calming the three foundational
elements: Sex, Food and Money. 

These are three main elements of 
consumption. They are also the 
elements of energy. The idea is
that these are my primordial energy
and I can waste them or use them
to grow. 

I can eat just for the pleasure,
without using food as medicine. 
I can spend all my money in objects
that create more desire, instead
of investing my money to help me
move my life in a more creative
and healing adventure. Sexually, 
I can waste my sexual energy in 
pornography to to fulfil a desire
of pleasure only, or I can cultivate
that sexual energy in a way that is 
both healing my body as well as 
creating an force of attraction 
of what I want with my life.  

Through my process, I'll often 
refer back to these elements. 

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