Parental instincts, I guess?
~aei
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Good evening, I feel incredibly exhausted, going out of town
tomorrow despite going out of town so many times these past couple
months, but hopefully this will be the last one for a long time.

Recently, I have been thinking more about what having a child will
be like. Not that I have any plans for it in the near future, but
it is a thought I keep pondering on.

What would it feel like to have someone to care about? I guess the
parents here may have an answer or something.

I know it won't be easy, I have had difficulties taking care of my
siblings and that's tough already.

But I can't help but think how it would be like.
Honestly I'm not even imagining anything about the partner part,
purely just thoughts of me and my child.

Not that I plan to be a single parent, I just don't seem interested
in imagining a hypothetical partner as much as I am interested in
what it would feel like to take care of someone.

Sometimes people around me don't feel their best, I get it, bad
days come and whatnot. Usually I feel obligated to say something,
something short or more frequently tall walls of text and/or long
conversations. I can't help it but feel this is related to the
wanting a child thing.

Anyways, away from this whole thing.
It's 1am and I do feel a bit tired. Maybe I'll go rest or have some
dinner or whatever happens, so goodnight.