A sudden moment of realization
~elijah
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Sometimes, well to be honest, most of the time I live life as if
I'm a character in a game. Like I view everything in a third person
point of view. My late teens were whizzing past and I am now in my
early to mid 20s. There are some very brief moments of clarity
where I find myself catching a glimpse of my face in a mirror or
seeing a photo of my face and my first thought would be "oh shit!
I'm real.".

The other week I was out shopping for some clothes when my mother
noticed that I had one strand of white hair on my head full of jet
black. I saw in her eyes and face the difficult fact to swallow
that her little boy wasn't so little anymore. We had a moment where
little was spoken but a lot was said.

Another thing that I realized upon reflecting on my mortality is
the fact that time waits for no one. The days that I remember like
yesterday are already 10 years in the past. I feel like I lament
the loss of my youth and missed opportunities and more. But now I
think that one day I'd wake up 50 and lament the loss of my 20s
which I wasted in nostalgia.

Perhaps its time to wake up, Perhaps its time to put down the
mourning suit and live. Perhaps its time to let go and fly.