*thunder for background noise*
~iazia
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first off, i'd like to say that i think i nabbed the job for the
interview i did yesterday, so i'm kind of thrilled to get back to
working. it's been almost two years without one and, while i'm not
financially suffering, it's been driving me up the wall without a
job.

a part of my nerves over this joblessness stem from an old
relationship i had years ago, where my ex frequently made it a
point to remind me i was jobless and useless around the house
unless i did something to fill in the time. this was some six-seven
years ago, and i was only jobless for a few months, but the anxiety
did a number on me. it affected everything about me, from how much
i eat to how much i sleep, how much gas i spend, if i need to
really buy that kind of snack or not. funny enough, he broke up
with me because of these neuroses that he ended up instilling in
me! or maybe it was the guilt.

it probably wasn't the guilt.