the inevitability of time
~rav3ndust
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It's been a rough last few weeks in my family, which is why I'm
just now getting back into the Pub for the first time in a few
weeks. ~bartender, a black coffee please, I could certainly use a
bit of a caffeine boost - damned insomnia.

My father in law, who is in his mid-70s, has been diagnosed with
cancer and is rapidly going downhill, unable to keep food or drink
down and generally unable to get out of bed. I can tell the toll
this is taking on my wife, though she is trying not to show it.
It's having a bit of a rough go on me, as well, as I have had a
great relationship with my in-laws over the years and hate to see
them going through this.

I've been distracting myself with my sysadmin work, free software
projects, and video games, but this whole thing (as it does every
time something like this happens in my family - lost too many loved
ones to cancer already) has me thinking about my own mortality and
the inevitability of time.

the wife and I mostly live pretty healthy lives, we eat right and
do our best to get in exercise and take care of our bodies, but as
usual, this is a reminder that eventually, the time comes for all
of us, no matter how well we take care of ourselves, and we need to
make the best of this life while we have it.

hug your loved ones, let your friends and family know what they
mean to you. none of us are guaranteed tomorrow, and someone we
care about could be here one day and gone the next, which is why
it's so important to let them know what they mean to you while
they're here. there are so many people in my life that i've lost
that i would love to have one last conversation with, just to let
them know what they meant to me and how much of a profound impact
so many of them had on my life.

other than all that, just dealing with the usual August Arkansas
heat and waiting impatiently on autumn to arrive. hoping to see
some of this turn around, but sadly it's not looking like the
prognosis is great. take good care of yourselves, Pub, and spend
time with those that mean the most to you while you can. and if you
get any rain in your area, send some my way! some tranquil rain and
a cool front would be a nice break~