Catchup and burnout
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I haven't written a phlog post for the past
couple of days because I've just been so ungodly
tired. I'm not even sure why.

Of course there's an anxious part of my brain
going "you've got a mild case of omicron that's
still going to leave you brainfogged and
disabled long term good luck with life, fucker"
because that's just kinda how my brain works,
but I really think that I'm just tired and worn
down.

A lot of the omicron news has been continuing to
get to me as our cases are getting close to a
million new a day even though schools haven't
even started in earnest yet.

It's the schools thing that keeps freaking me
out because it feels so blatantly just about
making sure parents have a place to leave their
kids so they don't have a reason to miss work.

I mean, look, I understand that isolation is
really bad for kids. I understand better than
almost anyone and, honestly, unless you had
to talk to yourself all day because you didn't
see anyone other than your parents for months at
a time I don't really want anyone trying to
challenge me on this.

I want kids to be able to have places to go and
ways to be social yet also be safe, but the
goddamn thing of it all is that we're not doing
anything to make that possible. We're just, as a
nation, going "look it's in-person or nothing
and nothing would be bad so..." and that's so
fucking obviously disingenous.

I'm scared, I'm frustrated, and not just on my
own behalf but for everyone. The thing I keep
getting stuck on is that omicron is hitting
children really hard right now, like other
strains hadn't, and we don't know if we're
putting millions of children at risk for long
term pulmonary and neurologic damage. It's
horrifying.

I feel like basically every layer of government
is failing us and we're just being told that we
need to shrug it off and deal.

It feels like we're just vaccinated enough that
everyone with power has collectively decided
that the rest count as acceptable losses to keep
the economy going. As though we, a country with
the resources to raze the world down and build
it back up again twice over, couldn't just
fucking decide to give most of the country a
paid holiday and enough masks for everyone.