Sanity
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I always feel like creativity and lucidity are
anti-correlated. I don't mean some kind of silly
bullshit like "mental illness makes me more
creative". I mean something more like
"creativity and sanity draw from the same pool
of mental resources and to maintain one means
less of the other".

I don't understand a priori why this would be
true, but it's basically how I've always
felt. If I have a day where I write and code and
study a lot, like yesterday, where it feels like
I'm thinking clearly and efficiently then the
next day or two I'm on edge, cry at the drop of
a hat, and have times where I'm just shaking
from anxiety.

So what do I do? Obviously the solution isn't
"don't do my job" I just wish there was a way to
moderate things a bit.