What is home?
February 7th, 2023
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Returning home from the coast I was entranced by endless forests of
ferns in the undergrowth of leafless tree swallowed by layers of thick
green moss, swirling fog meeting the sky and ground. I may be a
"computer person" but I never feel at home indoors. I always want to
be surrounded by green and cold and damp and dark. My boyfriend often
calls me a forest fairy, a dryad.

Two days off work and swallowed by depression and sadness and now I'm
starting to feel like I know how to try again.

I think I have some plans that are going to work. I'm currently trying
to find a way to fund a creative coding space that apparently got
built out a bit a few years ago but, according to one the full-time
instructors who has used it, it just isn't quite there yet because the
grant for building it ran out. In particular, they told me the space
desperately needs computers and guess what I have nearly 50k for as an
item in this budget?

I don't know if it's going to work but it's definitely better than
trying to take over Yet Another Room on campus and rush a half-planned
out space to meet grant goals. I'd rather take something already
embedded, already a part of a burgeoning curriculum and help them go
even further as some kind of "ai enabled creative lab space". Only
sorta bullshit, given that really want I want to help them do is
integrate more computer vision and generative ml projects into their
already existing program and then, hey, we all win.