Do I need to be bored *more*?
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More thoughts today as I've been starting to
wonder if one of the problems I'm having isn't
that I'm finding everything boring but if I'm
not letting myself be bored enough.

What I mean is that I pretty much always have
something playing over headphones, tab from what
I'm doing to twitter [mumble] times a day, and
am checking discord for messages constantly. In
the middle of typing that sentence I glanced
over a couple of times, actually.

Maybe part of my burnout is that I'm not letting
myself get the good kind of bored, the "sit with
yourself until you can't take it" bored, the
"your brain starts generating real ideas and
creative thoughts just to fucking entertain
itself" bored.

I think in trying to run from how burned out I
constantly feel I've unfortunately put myself in
a place where I'm getting a constant trickle
charge during the times I'm not working because
I'm constantly occupied by something, instead of
actually going into a rest mode where I can
really recharge.

Does anyone else ever feel this way? As always
I'm left_adjoint@rawtext.club