this is day 19 since I last had work.

I've done some productive things, but the energy and the attention comes and goes in waves.

I make a to-do list, I go to the store, I get things done

then a few days pass and I notice how much free time I've spent doing what felt like... nothing. that I could have been doing better things.

"what did I do today? I woke up at 8:30am, I had breakfast, I listened to the news... and its 7pm. Search me, i guess."