"Ought I not to have been more careful to win the good opinion of others, more determined to conquer their hostility or indifference? It would have be a joy to me to be smiled upon, loved, encouraged, welcomed, and to obtain wh I was so ready to give, kindness and goodwill. But to hunt down consideratio and reputation — to force the esteem of others — seemed to me an effort unworthy of myself, almost a degradation. A struggle with unfavorable opinio has seemed to me beneath me, for all the while my heart has been full of sadness and disappointment, and I have known and felt that I have been systematically and deliberately isolated. Untimely despair and the deepest discouragement have been my constant portion. Incapable of taking any intere in my talents for their own sake, I let everything slip as soon as the hope being loved for them and by them had forsaken me. A hermit against my will, have not even found peace in solitude, because my inmost conscience has not been any better satisfied than my heart." -- Henri-Frédéric Amiel These are my personal reflections upon the Journal of Henri-Frédéric Amiel. (TXT) [02-06-2019] On Ambition (TXT) [02-05-2019] On Aging (TXT) [02-04-2019] On History (TXT) [02-03-2019] On Conceptions