"Ought I not to have been more careful to win the good opinion of others,
       more determined to conquer their hostility or indifference? It would have be
       a joy to me to be smiled upon, loved, encouraged, welcomed, and to obtain wh
       I was so ready to give, kindness and goodwill. But to hunt down consideratio
       and reputation — to force the esteem of others — seemed to me an effort
       unworthy of myself, almost a degradation. A struggle with unfavorable opinio
       has seemed to me beneath me, for all the while my heart has been full of
       sadness and disappointment, and I have known and felt that I have been
       systematically and deliberately isolated. Untimely despair and the deepest
       discouragement have been my constant portion. Incapable of taking any intere
       in my talents for their own sake, I let everything slip as soon as the hope 
       being loved for them and by them had forsaken me. A hermit against my will, 
       have not even found peace in solitude, because my inmost conscience has not
       been any better satisfied than my heart." 
       
           -- Henri-Frédéric Amiel
       
       These are my personal reflections upon the Journal of Henri-Frédéric Amiel.
       
       
 (TXT) [02-06-2019] On Ambition
 (TXT) [02-05-2019] On Aging
 (TXT) [02-04-2019] On History
 (TXT) [02-03-2019] On Conceptions