it's really confusing to be in 
the end of a relationship, while
still living together. 

We agreed that it won't probably
work in the end so we shouldn't
spend too much money on therapy. 
She should move out by september
and I will keep the house. She 
always wanted to move out for 
the last few years. 

But then a mutual friend of our
is moving to mexico and she is 
inviting us. Now my wife is like
'screw moving, lets stay here, 
save money and move to mexico.'

I am unsure what's my place in 
here. I don't think she really 
'care', I mean intellectually
she care. It would be a bad
thing not to care. But at the 
core, the 'me' the Geoffroy, 
it doesn't seem to really matter
who I am, or how I feel. 

Through all that, my main strategy
is to stay focus and calm on my 
presence, my health, my work. 
The relationship is kind of secondary
now and that seems to kind of work
better. We are kind of more separated
and that seems to be healthier 
even if we live in the same house. 

I play more music, breath more, 
work more, I started drawing again... 
I 'care' less too? Is that a thing.
But now I'll have to figure out
something to do with my libido...