TITLE: Five months of unemployment
DATE: 2018-03-06 20:31:50

I lost my job in the last week of September 2017. In that time, I've
visited 2 European countries, visited my parents and in-laws, and have
had slowly gaining traction on the interviews. I've had two on-site
interviews, and tomorrow I have another one.

I feel ready for a new job. I honestly, don't see me quite excited for
any job, but I need to pay my credit card debt, and have to work
towards establishing a better savings and retirement accounts.

My main goal, aside from the financial development plan, is to finish
all my class requirements to be capable of transferring to any nearby
University. I want to finish my Physics degree.

Five months of unemployment sure makes you think about life and your
skills. I've went from depressed, to accepting how I am and how I feel
about my career and my position in life. From this, I've come to the
conclusion, that the way I landed in SF back in 2010, was completely
different from now. Back in 2010, people cared about the capability
and the skill you had in a sector. With the invention of "Full-Stack"
roles there are less specializations, and more added responsability
and domain concern to the engineer. When they used to ask for specific
knowledge about a language, know they ask how can you solve a problem
in a business perspective. It really makes me sad, to find an industry
that valued beauty and craftmanships, turn on those values, and just
become hungry "winners" of the profitability scaling no matter what.

I've noticed that I care less for any material possesions. I value
more all the habits, I used to naturally act upon. I used to have all
my schedule on top, now it's becoming harder to keep my schedule. My
journals are somewhat empty, and it's already the beginning of the
third month of 2018. I feel so bad when I see my Hobonichi Techo
mostly blank. I play with the idea of catching up with the days that I
can remember, but that doesn't feel like doable.