Thankfully, despite an undercurrent of melancholy that always runs just below the surface of my consciousness, I have a happy disposition and a positive outlook.* I know the monsters are lurking by my feet, but I just push them away, or I pick them up and make them my friends.* They're just lonely after all. Unless they're truly wicked.* Then I push them down the river and teach others how to deal with them when that demon arrives in their mind. What would hell for me be?* Frozen, unable to cope, unable to think straight.* A Panic Attack that doesn't subside.* That would be mine.