Oh I know I know. I found some pictures when I was young, at
   family events. Other pictures from parties when I was a
   teenager.

   I was always behind a piano, or as a teenager, behind a
   computer, or lately, when I have to go to parties, I'm behind my
   iPhone.

   I find safety behind a piece of technology I can interact with.

   Outbursts are social no-nos, unfortunately, and they're
   draining. I've only occasionally resorted to making an
   outburst... and it takes all the energy out of me to do so, and
   then I feel guilty and wonder what the consequences will be.

   So, I hide when I can. Socialize when I must. I have learned to
   politely smile, laugh at the right times, and find someone whose
   jokes I can pretend to laugh at until I find a moment to slip
   away and recharge my batteries.