what helps me [but again, biochemical differences definitely
   apply here to technique] - is seeking that "woah" experience
   wherever I go.

   Perhaps I have an ongoing amnesia... or perhaps I'm running-from
   "the something" - but it started as a conscious thing that's
   subvocal now.

   I ask myself: "Who am I serving right now?" - and while it may
   seem to be a strange formulation, it seems to work. Of course
   I'm serving self - the "how does this benefit me?" question I
   let take care of itself now... but as that's taken care of
   simply by existing really... I ask, "Whose core am I trying to
   reach?"

   Sometimes I find I'm serving somebody who is dead. I want a 3rd
   grade teacher to genuinely mean it when she says, "I'm deeply
   impressed by your ..." and I can _feel it_.

   But alas, she's dead.

   So, if I'm _not_ serving The Dead in my actions, who amongst the
   living am I serving at this moment?

   Right now it's you as I respond to this message. A few minutes
   ago, it was [1]Shi Ji - and when you get that depth of "giving
   it 100%" - whether or not it is successful... that part doesn't
   matter as much - the feeling of "woah" satisfaction when someone
   "gets' what you're saying is immense... and it improves the
   experience of communication 10000%.

   [I also like to get woah feeling other times - I have a series
   of questions I ask myself to try to get the most out of any
   inkling that crosses my mind].

   I also am on constant vigilance to the negative-pull things.
   They're everpresent and always working hard to pull my center of
   gravity down into their little gravity wells... so it takes
   quick thinking sometimes.. and at other times... giving
   melonchaly its due and just allowing it to pass through, accept
   it, and otherwise, wait for its passing.

   but the last trick is likely unique to my biochemistry and I
   don't know if it's something that's duplicatible.

References

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