Same I sometimes visualize it (imaginarily so) - the timelines
   perceived along with the timelines experienced... the effect of
   multiple empathized deaths can have upon one's own outlook on
   one's own eventual demise... and how it is all shaped.

   You live the lives of fictional (or non-fictional) characters
   *as a substitute* for your own, while _also_ experiencing your
   own. These layers of overlapping realities and the shaping of
   self is absolutely fasctinating to me.