Oh, I don't mean an emotional breakdown. Nothing so dramatic. Perhaps a sense of freedom. Or perhaps you are entirely correct: You know yourself in ways that I can't. Perhaps there is a pattern that your brain follows that is similar to others that's called a dissocial personality type and you all exhibit the same responses to stimuli - even if that response is a lack of response. Perhaps it's something as simple as forgetting. The verb tense. Switching from "is" to "was". It could be something as basic as that that may take a year to implant. And again, maybe I'm wrong. General rules are general rules; they don't apply to all, perhaps not even to many. But, point of fact is, you're you and it's presumptuous of me to presume to know your future path, and comparing you to someone I know as if you are interchangeable terms in an equation isn't proper. For what it's worth, may you cope well, even if all the coping consists of is reminding people "You don't have to do [x] for me, because I am not in need of [x] as I am not like you" and then coping with having to explain [y].