I was Eastern Orthodox Christian for about 5 years in my late
   20s. Had a lot of fun. Even did some short time in a monastery.
   I could do it again. Agnostic now. I'm sure I was then too.

   But I learned about:
   [1]https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Apophatic_theology

   negative theology. What God is not. That might be helpful to you
   in your quest.

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   1. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Apophatic_theology