Three times I missed my chance for ecstasy. Not enough (I was
   the big man who said, "it's ok, you have it) twice, and one time
   I was just too late for the order. Probably for the best anyway
   tongue emoticon I don't experiment much now 'cause I found what
   works for me that's OTC: a combination of changing my sleep
   patterns, nicotine, caffeine, zinc and magnesium, getting enough
   protein, lowering carb amounts, eat good fat in the same day I
   have bad. But my goal is keeping brain whirring and creative and
   focused. Haven't drunk or smoked pot in a while 'cause it dulled
   things for me and I mentally am always working on my 'next
   motions' for greatest effectiveness/least effort, as well as
   noticing the running dialogue/music/emotions in my mind/body as
   I go along, as well as what I suspect the impact of what I'm
   writing right now might have on the other person and predicting
   their responses and incorporating my predictions in what I'm
   saying. Ugh that was a mouthful. All depends on needs I guess
   smile emoticon Oh, and when I'm at the computer I use what I
   know of how it's made to sometimes mentally see through it and
   all the layers and such to the other side, or look at the
   ceiling to see the sky above it and all the layers inbetween.
   Not as much need for LSD although I don't really think I ever
   needed it. I remember thinking this stuff as a kid too, but I
   really did enjoy LSD... if it just didn't last for 8 hrs. 4
   would've been plenty :) == Even the stuff I allow myself -
   nicotine / caffeine I remind myself that I let my tolerance
   levels get too high. Too many cigarettes, a pot and a half of
   coffee a day. It's on my "one of these days I'll..." list to
   reduce tolerance levels but I'll have to be prepared to do a lot
   of sleeping and be taking headache pills of some kind 'cause my
   body will _not_ like it much at all. == [re: hippie stuff]
   They're so social though - and my kind of social (which is
   rare). I'd be hooked on the lifestyle in a heartbeat. I did a
   bit of it back at the hippie college (Hampshire College) and
   loved it too much. It's definitely my 'default' place to be but
   I like the challenge of being away from it and seeing what I can
   do outside of it. "What doesn't kill me" type of thing smile
   emoticon == shit, I just realized, I've been living the
   what-doesn't-kill-me as a lifestyle! WHEN the heck did I decide
   to take Nietzsche seriously? hah tongue emoticon ==