I'm back at the asylum. Things didn't go so well. I completely lost confidence in myself. My vision of the future darkened until there was nothing to look forward to. I didn't try to kill myself. I don't know where I left off with this phlog. Eventually I got out of the asylum. Now I'm back. I panicked and called the emergency line. No! I walked down to the hospital, but the emergency room was closed. I called the doorbell and asked if they were open. A voice said no, I needed an appointment. This was in the middle of the night. A week later I panicked again and called the emergency line. That's how I got back.