Sat Oct 26 17:49:16 UTC 2019 I am so frustrated with my command screen editor experiences. I seem to be able to make minor edits, but anytime I try to do anything at length I run headlong into mistakes that cost me many hours of work at the worst and upsetting disharmony at the least. Ok so here is my attempt to write this out again. I had written something out and hit undo by mistake. The entire entry was lost and I couldn't get it to redo or undo redo or whatever they call it. I feel like I may switch to emacs or nano after this. Today is a coffee shop day. I came up here around ten am local time and wrote in my paper journal about my feelings and how life is going. I wrote my mom a letter. I've kind of reverted in my most sensitive communications. I send letters or cards with personal stuff and I talk to people over the phone. At work it's a little different. I am still living the modern life, so I don't think I quite understand what my problem is yet. After writing a letter I went ahead and pulled up the LISA 2019 conference schedule and wrote down in my planner / notebook what the talks I wanted to go to. I also put them into the conference's iOS app too. There's so much to do that I hope I have fun and don't feel rushed. Sort of stressed about the Co-op stuff happening tomorrow. It's our fall meeting and last meeting we had hardly anyone there. The people who do show up seem to feel bad that it's not full of other members of the coop. We keep growing memberships but people aren't interested in being part of the democratic process, they seem to just want the discounts and stuff. If that's how it is maybe we need to refocus or change how we engage with membership. Alrighty, that's it for now. I'm frustrated and hungry. It's 1300 local now and I think the baristas are tired of me sitting here typing.