Sober thoughts ============== If waking up today with the mother of all hangovers tell me one thing then it is that i need to make a change. For years now i don't like the way the world is heading and i tend to get a bit depressed about it, more so since the covid lockdowns. I found out that a small glass of whiskey in the evening at least eased my mind enough that i was finally able relax a bit and shove the negative thoughts away. The side effect of this was, that i did got a taste for whiskey, looking back the last two years perhaps a bit too much of it... Do i consider myself a person who has problems with alcohol? No, of course not. But i think that would also be something an alcoholic would say... hmm... Ok, time for a little self assessment How much do i drink at the moment? --------------------------------- About a bottle whiskey a week Do i have problems without it? ----------------------------- Not really, if i forget to buy some i can go days without it without having the sudden urge to go to the gas station to buy some in the middle of the night, BUT i have a growing "Man, NOW a nice glass of whiskey would be nice" feeling in the evenings. Did my tolerance increase? -------------------------- Definitively! A small glass two years ago would having me notice it very much, now two or three glasses letting me fairly easy stay sober enough to code or following a political debate. Though... the hangovers got worse. Did it influence my life or relationships in a negative way? ------------------------------------------------------------ Nope, everything fine so far... except the vile hangover now and then. Did i do something under influence which i wouldn't do without? --------------------------------------------------------------- Nope, as i only drink sitting comfortable on the couch reading a book or listening to music... in a bar or restaurant i only drink alcohol-free beer or a soft drink. So... what is my problem? At the moment only the hangovers when i had one glass too much in the evening and the observation that the hangovers are getting worse. This lead to a bit of concern regarding the long term health effects which i want to monitor as a soon-to-be dad. Perhaps i also read a bit too much in the net regarding all things around alcoholism, and the regularity it has become worries me a bit. So... what is the conclusion? No alcohol anymore at least for a while.