On one hand, they say I am capable and deserve much better. To a certain extent, I do agree and wish for much better, not so much for myself, but for the better of the family. But after a month of application, it becomes apparent otherwise. I am certain God has led me here thus far, to this lifestyle and peers surrounding. Perhaps I am taking things too much into my own. Perhaps it was to lead to this point of reflection, that to conquer fate, one has to resign fate. I am so blessed to have my wife and two sons. Priceless is to have your own respond and embrace you with pure innocence, Almost every night I wonder and often fear losing these truly precious  moments that time cannot turn back. Perhaps what I have now is what I sought and what was given. Perhaps to truly live, one has to truly not just pass on fleetingly, but commit to death. Show the way of the ancient paths and lead me to joy everlasting, packed with meaning and inspiration, never to regret what You have already provided.