Thoughts on something you said, about feeling a lot of remorse over things you may have done in the past to others, things you were not happy with. That just means you--like most very intelligent people who aren't selfish psychopaths--have a highly sensitive conscience. i don't think this detracts from one's Alpha-ness. In fact it confirms it. Noblesse oblige: the idea that someone who is a member of a superior minority has responsibilities to hold oneself to a higher standard, and to treat others accordingly. What is the root of the word 'virtue', interestingly enough? Vir = man. Traditionally, to be virtuous actually meant to possess the positive qualities of the dominant male. How 'being virtuous' has been redefined to apply only to hypermoral-sexually-dysfunctional ladies of the Suzie Scowl-Snatch and Prudence Pickle-Puss type...is just another sad degradation of the English language. Also, when thinking of past flaws and lapses we have committed. Usually the passage of time + self-criticism = makes whatever the thing was appear worse than it actually was. Usually the thing in question is considered trivial and is long-forgotten by the person it was done to. The fundamental desire of the human animal, if s/he is not completely degraded, is self-actualization; moving closer to understanding of perfection. When we encounter that confidence and self-possession, we want to attach ourselves to it, submit to it. Looking at it from the other side of the fence; the desire to be corrected and guided and disciplined is acknowledgment that there is something closer to perfection than we are, and our desire to transcend and ascend draws us to it, helplessly.