#Entry 1
##The Dance of Author and Reader
My mind is racing to which topics i should write about. What should i say, what can I say, how should i say it? How do i get across who i am and what im about, really? How much of my personal life and inner thoughts am I comfortable with sharing, how much are you comfortable with reading? Should I, the author, worry about what the potential readers think, does it hinder my '''art'''? 
The conclusion i come to is this: This capsule is for me, not you. You are welcome to view and I encourage it very much, but the motive of me writing these lines is purely selfish in nature. I dont care for external validation much. Instead, the goal was the creation of  a place for me to organize my nebulous thoughts and give them form. Still, it would be a lie of ommision if I didnt say, that part of me does hope someone stumbles upon my writing and enjoys what they see. I always wondered how good of an author I was. School testing told me that my grammar was at a college level, but ive found the real world is much different than schooling. Just about as different at being able to spell great is from being able to write something enjoyable. Both are being put to the test I suppose.

##My first guide
The first thing I did was actually write up a guide on how I made this capsule. The SDF foundation sure is generous, and I cant thank them enough. My capsule, henceforth known as capsulus maximus, started off rough around the edges (like most things do). I have revised it a ton over the day, ironing out small spelling mistakes and adding minor bits of helpful information that slipped my mind before. All in all, I did a decent job in making a functioning guide that I wish I had when starting this venture. The SDF wiki page really could use some clearing up, im unsure if i should be the one to do it.

##But what now?
I guess the literal answer is this, entry 1. I like the idea of gemlogs however you need a small knowledge of scripts and of course proper permission to add those scripts to the server. I saw mention of some phlogging scripts on the SDF public FTP server when reading through the wiki, however I'm still waiting on my verification to come in to access that part of the server (I opted to send a dollar in the mail, in retrospect should have just used paypal) and I don't know if anyone's cooked up something for gemini, or how to even apply those scripts. So in the meantime ill just write in a word processor and manually make a new page + link for each entry. There wont be anything fancy like timestamps unless I decide to manually date these. Timestamps might just be too much of a pain in the ass to keep up though so no promises. The important part is that im here writing and you're here reading, right?

EDIT: I didnt know much about gemlogs at the time and made some incorrect assumptions. All thats need to done to make a gemlog is make the post title and contents in a proper formatting. You can find more information here:
=>  gemini.circumlunar.space/docs/companion/subscription.gmi gemlog spec page 

This is my first time expressing myself long-form through a public outlet. In my private writings I have a hard time committing to any one line of thought, which you'll might have noticed by feeling some literary whiplash. I guess im at the point in my life where im starting to want to write about my thoughts and share them too. Too often have I had a spark of a unique thought, insight, or a desire to say something only for it to die shortly after while not doing anything to act on them. Id like to finally give myself a chance to birth them out of my head into (virtual) reality. Where do thoughts come from, really? Some person once said:
> "I do not invent my creations! They come to me from the 4th dimension."
## Reaching Out
I would be lying by omission if I didn't include that I also hope someone comes across these blocks of text one day and gets some value out them. The idea of my creations being seen by someone, anyone is a nice thought. I put my email & XMPP at the front of my capsule for a reason, I genuinly want to make conversation and be part of the community. Its just hard when you have to start from scratch.
## Trimming the Fat of Words
The hardest part is figuring out what should be cut out. A lot of sentences get written then scrapped because I find them too irrelevant or worded wierdly. Sometimes ill come back to a paragraph after time has passed and want to change it. should I have kept them in? Is there some integredy found in one-shot off the cuff writing? My current take away is that sometimes its better to cut out the fat so that the more important bits are easier seen, however i recently read a log from a typewriting enthusiast arguing for the one-shot style. They made some very valid points which made me think enough to write this section i suppose. What do you think? 

##Streams of Conciousness
These entries will serve as stream of consciousness daily life stuff maybe, as well as travel related things. I want to do some reviews of the games and books and movies I like. But I also want to write about weird topics that have always interested me but never found common company to really talk about with. Psychedelic experiences, observations about reality, the nature of human experience, fractals and complexity, how order comes from chaos. Philosophical and mathematical and spiritual stuff. I also understand that these topics are probably too out there to the average tech nerd gemini users comfort zone. Also I find it hard to talk about complicated abstract subjects without sounding like a pretentious know-it-all asshole which I definitely don't want to come across as. So ill probably make a section specifically for those out there kind of writings with a warning about them being weird and perhaps too personal, viewer beware.

##Fractal Compendium  & Other Ideas
One of my hopes is to create a kind knowledge base about fractals on gemini. I wonder if i'm the first to come up with that particular project? I tried searching for fractals on GUS and geminispace but didnt get much.

I also thought it would be fun to make a gemini page dedicated to my pets, just for the laughs. Ill try to put in some pictures of them through the ascii converter and see if anything usable pops out.

#Reality, OR IS IT?! No it is. Probably.
In real life events, today im going to the farmers market to do some grocery shopping. Havent been to one in awhile so hope it goes well. Need to get into juicing again. I guess im at the end of my list of things to talk about. I want to get the day going anyways spent too much time staring at this damn screen. I guess ill see you in another entry, or whatever I make next. Thanks for reading.

:)

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