06:00 +0000 >> Happier

I feel so much happier in the past few days. I have finally been 
offered a decent job -- not my ideal one, but It would be just fine in the 
short term. I still would really like to work on getting "that" 
ideal/dream job though... then today I worked on something I had been 
meaning to work on to make my life so much more livable. Suicidal thoughts 
come into mind less these past few days. Monday was the worst. Mom prayed 
for me. My former co-worker and soon to be co-worker, again, prayed for 
me. Everyone prays for me except myself. I no longer pray. I sometimes do 
but by accident... I guess by instinct. Old ways are really hard to get 
rid of.