F ME!
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03:53

I f^¢k1n hate myself right now.

04:31

I've got so many problems. I feel like the weight of the world is on my
shoulder. The only thing that is pushing me through is my faith. He is keeping
me alive. I wonder for what? What is living for if all I have to go through is
problem? There are small bursts of happiness but I go revert back to worrying
as soon as the burst of happiness is over.

Maybe He's got something planned for me I don't know.

I'm sorry if you accidentally stumbled upon this and makes you sad. I am not
asking for pity. I just want to record what I feel now. I don't know why I feel
the need to record it. I just feel better after doing it. I am asking you
reader to please not to respond to my whinings. This is just my way of venting. 

It could be that I want someone else other than me to know in case I disappear? 

What's the point... I might delete this entry again tomorrow as soon as I get
up.

Must sleep. Maybe the world will end tonight... problems solved.