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DATE: 2019-05-11
MOOD: BETWEEN OVERWHELMED AND BORED
MUSIC: KICKED IT IN THE SUN BY BUILT TO SPILL

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The cats woke me up early this morning, so now I'm just awake. This is
fine because it means I can get a bit of work done.

I'm in this weird in-between state. On the one hand, work has me a
little overwhelmed. I've got a lot of responsibilities for projects and
no desire to see them through.

In the past, I was able to get around this by offloading some work to
another coworker. Then, once the work was collaborative, I'd feel more
comfortable working again. When it's just me, well, it's just me. If a
feature isn't there, it's *my* fault. When a bug is there, it's *still
my fault*.

At the same time, though, I feel bored by my work because I'm in this
state of paralysis with it. I want to work on some things and be
productive, but I can't.

I'm not sure what the best way to get out of this funk is. I've always
been a proponent of "fail forward" -- even when I'm not getting good
work done, as long as I'm doing something, it's fine. Typically for me,
this means working on interesting web projects (my area of work) and at
least getting some experience with new technology.

The trouble is that all of these projects end up being multi-day-long
tasks. It's never just "let me spend a few hours and do this," it
becomes "well, I almost finished today, but I'll definitely finish
tomorrow" for almost a week.

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In other news, I recently got an account on cmccabe's rawtext.club [0].
I'm not sure exactly what I'll end up doing, but I hope to get some
collaborative things made. Maybe collaborative text editing, a
collective self-organized wiki (like the C2 wiki), or something else.

[0]: gopher://gopher.club/users/cmccabe/micro.pubnix.experiment

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Song: Laundry Day by No Vacation

1,2,3,4

I don't want to get up
Yeah, I don't want to get up
And I've got all this dirty laundry to do

I wanna lay in bed
Yeah, I wanna lay in bed
'Cause it's a nice Sunday afternoon

I don't wanna get out of bed
Yeah, I don't wanna get out of bed

But all these clothes keep piling up
And I gotta wash, dry, and fold them up
But all these clothes keep piling up
And I gotta wash, dry, and fold them up, oh oh
But all these clothes keep piling up
And I gotta wash, dry, and fold them up, oh oh

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