2020-01-21
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	How does one realize their potential?
	On one hand it could be that you are
	kidding yourself by imagining greatness
	but on the other it seems hard to not
	test your limit somehow.

	I find myself in a situation where taking my
	act to the next level would require some
	amount of "roleplay" on my part in the spirit
	of fake it till you make it. I am trying to
	work out a scheme where I don't have to 
	take part in the cancerous structures.
	In some ways it might even be an advantage
	not to have to spend time on polishing your
	social media profiles in order to advance
	your business.

	I have a vague sense of imposter syndrome with
	it. But in a weird way. I have so much contempt
	for the game that to win it, even on my own terms,
	would somehow seem like being infected by it.

	The fact that people need money for survival
	makes such ponderings less compelling of course.

	And surely, at the moment I am not earning
	in a way that is 100% aligned with my
	moral intuitions.

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