.__ | \*. , _ ._. __* _ ._ __ |__/| \/ (/,[ _) |(_)[ )_) (Diversions) June 05, 2020 This last week with the renewed BLM protests and associated riots I've been toggling mostly between two modes, preoccupation with current events and working on planning out building my shop with an unprecedented fervor. I was talking to the SO the other day. I mentioned that I've been incredibly anxious lately an unable to concentrate on work, I explained that with the COVID stuff happening and with the racial unrest in the country that I feel on edge, watchful, and helpless. She responded, "Oh, and I thought you were anxious because of my work anxiety spilling over on you." She's a rather anxious person herself and is making a big career transition, and has a tendency to disregard the type of advice I give, she's stubborn, much like me. This all ends up leaving me feeling on edge, watchful, and helpless. Ultimately, I don't know that there's just one source to my anxiety, and I'm quite sure all the problems are actual problems. I'll do what I can do to help, and I'll keep earning a few bucks at my job, and I'll build out my shop. My impact barely makes an impression with my SO, I have less hopes for really making things move in centuries-old racial tensions, or viral onslaughts. So I'll balance it all out with nailing sticks together into a shelter that I can hole up in and nail other things together within it.