[=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=] [<<>><<>><<>><<>><<>><<>><<>><<>><<>><<>><<>><<>><<>><<>><<>><<>><<>] [=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=] Stardate: 20230629.2015 Location: The Lab Input Device: Dell 7202 Audio: aNONradio open mic's robo dj Visual: Lab clutter Emotional: beyond spent [=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=] I have been spending a lot of time in meatspace, not by choice. Too much going on and I am just trying to survive. At least all of this is just temporary, just like everything. Even June, almost gone. Just temporary. Speaking of June, since it is still June, I will try to answer the 5 questions from christyotwisty: June 2023 Questions: 1. Describe the most expensive object you'd like to buy. I'd like to buy more time, but time won't accept our moniez. *sad face* Or would I be buying an illusion paid for by another illusion that most people have agreed to as legal tender? 2. What is something the generation preceding you loves that you don't understand? The American dream? I'm talking about my parents. They are immigrants. Maybe that's why I don't understand. 3. What is something the generation succeeding you loves that you don't understand? Plastic bottle flipping and fidget spinners? Tik tok? 4. what holiday in your calendar needs to be replaced, and with what other observation or commemoration? My personal holiday, my birth day, needs to be replaced with my death day. When I was born, I just passed through a vagina. When I die, even if it is today, I have done so much more. I tell my kids to celebrate my life on my death day, not my birth day. 5. what do you think it means to be redeemed? Have you felt redeemed at one time? Can one be redeemed an iota without the drama of a constructed fiction narrative? Being redeemed...like redemption...not bottle redemption, maybe redemption in life? I don't think of life from that perspective, well, not anymore. I grew up with catholicism and went to church with my folks before I had any kind of personal understanding or experience about those kinds of things. Being redeemed or redemption seems to be part of that or some kind of socially constructed human thing. Why am I born at a deficit and why is it wrong for me to ask that question? Why do I have to redeem myself? Being redeemed seems to be some kind of transactional social term, like someone is keeping score and has authority to judge. Maybe this is one of those things I just don't get and why I excel at antisocial buffoonery. I suppose one can be redeemed an iota without the constructed fiction narrative. Redeem you for yourself and narrate your own truth. [=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=-=x=]