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Nerd
January 23rd, 2021
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Me and my wife visited some friends, which is somewhat
rare during these times.  It is also much more heavy,
since everyone has kids, and they steal lots of
energies, making it basically impossible to talk
"normally".

These are good friends, basically like family, and
nonetheless I sometimes feel like I belong to a
different planet.

I spent my life learning about computers and such, and
it is such an important part of world, that it comes
with an unnatural pleasure when I'm getting to answer a
technical question.

This friend seems to be fascinated by my world, so he
keeps asking.  And I'm a computer geek, which means
I'll keep talking about this topic, starting from the
beginning of the Universe, to give the most complete
picture of the topic.

It happens so often that I end up being interrupted by
something, and it can be literally anything, and it
feels so painfully obvious that my friend is not paying
attention to what I'm saying anymore.

When this happens, that is almost always, I have to
resist the temptation of slipping in the classic "…buy
rocket packs, go to the Moon, become florist" speech.

I try to resume my 'lecture'.  I hate doing it: it is
really painful.

Today I just stopped there.  It was just too painful to
recover, and being very aware that it was pointless, I
just decided not to continue.

Can you guess what happened?  Nothing at all, nobody
noticed.  Not that I needed any confirmation.

I'm not angry about this.  I'm actually quite relieved.
I know I can use this strategy now, if I ever feel like
I could spare some energy.

Also, on a completely different topic, I think that
kids' television is real crap.  At my friend's I
passively watched a shitty video involving some Korean
(?) dance course (?) where kids danced at that stupid
"baby shark" song.  I hate the heck out of *everything*
like that.  (Not Korea, just the repetitive kids
music).