2-11-2019
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I want to live! I want to experience the world, in all its faults, in all its tangled webs and raging waterfalls and the snow under my feet! I want to see the next day- for it means a new today, and today is all I have, and it is all I will ever have!

I will survive this. I don't know how, because there's still money, and work, and the ceaseless physical needs of my body- but I've gotten through everything else before. My abusive gym teacher, my anhedonic summer, my father, the Lucine saga.

Every day, I work harder for a future I want- not the future my parents want, not the future my professors want, but a future *I* hold in my hands. Everywhere and nowhere, drinking deeply from time's chalice, from the sun and the moon and all the land between!

I'm whole. I'm alive. And I'm here to stay.

Long live Vane Vander!