2023-09-27                         from the editor of ~insom
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   Hello from continued non-work. I am updating my ~ from a
   park bench in the city. Trying to figure out what it means
   to be a man of leisure.

   I accepted a part time job and had to back out of it. I am
   substantially more burned out from my years of working in
   tech than I first thought. I thought that being excited
   about some work again was enough, but it's not. I panicked
   at the idea of people relying on me and was instantly
   overwhelmed.

   Also; since I "journaled" the process of leaving work by
   recording it into a dictaphone and later transcribing it and
   pasting it in -- I have broken myself of the otherwise good
   and consistent habit of journalling the good and bad
   feelings I'm having. Which sucks! Because this last month
   has had a whole bunch of things to feel and I wish I'd
   turned to that tool to help me figure things out and get
   them out of my head.

   At least there's always tilde.town.

   Now that I no longer work at $JOB I can place things into
   categories of "within my time at Shopify" and "bracketing my
   time at Shopify". For example; colleagues I interviewed,
   worked with, and then who left -- that was all within the
   time: people coming and going while I stayed still. But
   tilde.town is one of those outside things: town helped me
   get that job, and now I'm still here even though I am no
   longer working there.

   I wrote before about how my experience of Canada is entirely
   mixed up with my experience of working there, but now I get
   to figure out what being in Canada _is_ when it's not for
   work.