I have no idea if the job where I'm working is the specific kind of work
that suits me, in the long run. I spent so much time thinking about
whether I ever would land a job in software, one that could eventually lead
to, like, an actual livable salary, that I couldn't think much about what
*kind* of software work I want to be doing, and now that I *can* think
about it, it's a daunting question!

Also just… a Lot going on right now. And constant worrying about whether
we'll be able to afford to fix the family vehicle I broke so people aren't
stranded at the house when I go to work/school, whether I'll be able to buy
the over $400 parking pass that will allow me to park on the university
campus during the new school year, paying for medical stuff, &c.

I hate being grumpy like this; it doesn't suit me and makes me even less
creative than usual.