i just wanna play my silly games (pokemon rumble blast and mario odyssey) 
and do my tech shenaningans stuff (fuck around with arch, android, foss SW)
and listen to nice music (breakcore and old ost)
and watch pleasant videos on youtube
and go for runs in nature
and rot in my bed
and read interesting books about history

no people, no social interactions, no society pressure, nothing, just me and myself

but i'm doomed to be forever a people pleaser and having to fit in society/family/friends rules

P.s. Erlang is such a good language, i love it, bye