This morning i had a normal breakfast!

i had a hot lemon tea, an orange and a little piece of "panettone" with some nutella on it!

i feel guilty? fuck yes

will i do stupid things? i really hope not, i'll try my best to focus on other things now! 

wish me luck!

Bye!

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I even had an abundant luch: tomato soup with beans and bellpepper and a lot of bread

i feel so guilty now. One part off me wants to binge eat because i already ate a lot
and the "damage is done", the other part wants to throw up everything now.

I know that it's all wrong, i know that i didnt even eat that much, it was all "healthy"
stuff and i even had the strength to stop myself from over-eating when i felt
full and that i wasn't enjoying food anymore.

this is an accomplishment but instead i keep having all of this bad thoughts !!!!!!

but i'll not fall for it this time i dont care

i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it.
i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it.
i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. 
i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it. i can do it.

wish me luck again!

p.s. i did train after eating to try to compesate a bit, i know it's not a good
	 coping mechanism but at least i didn't harm myself no???