Chasing things, chasing ideas (zaibatsu), 07/11/2019
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I was never much into chasing things, but I've spend many 
years chasing ideas and ideals. As the years get on, I'm 
starting to think that even that is misguided. Perhaps this 
whole exercise of chasing is contrived, and designed to keep 
people looping rather than actually progressing?

Just a thought. Recently, I've been slacking on chasing. My 
wife and daughter are gone camping for a few days, and I 
miss them more than I thought I would. It's just me and my 
sons here, which is fun in its own way, but it's not quite 
the same. My feelings are making me think a bit about life. 
Perhaps life recently is making me think a bit as well.

Hobbies. I've not been one to chase hobbies much in my life. 
I took up fishing a few years back, simply because I lived 
next to a lake. That was a ton of fun, and very 
rejuvinating. I don't chase the hobby though, then or now 
(mostly). I just take it as it comes, and enjoy it. 
Electronics is something I took up for a few odd reasons. 
For a bit I spent more time on it, right now it's on the 
back burner. Vintage computers I chased a tiny bit. I 
confess that I chased PDA's far too much in their day. But, 
that's it, I've come clean, and I feel like I've done OK in 
keeping hobbies at bay.

I hardly know where I'm going with this. All I know is the 
house is too quiet, and I felt like getting into gopher 
space a bit.

Those ideas and ideals that I spent so many years chasing 
are coming into focus more for me right now. I'm realizing 
that they're not valuable in and of themselves. They are 
just possibilities, options, paths that could be taken. The 
paths that I am I, the paths that I have taken, are pretty 
good. And I'm quite certain that if I had taken other paths, 
I'd be chasing still something else. I think it's in my 
nature.

The realization is helpful. I can let go of the things that 
I didn't do, the things that I didn't achieve, and be 
pleased with what I did. It's not perfect, but life never 
is.